hile precariously balancing that fine line between insanity and genius he pathologically maintains constant personal, spiritual and physical metamorphosis to ingratiate himself. That must take an inordinate amount of emotional energy. Winiarz truly believes that he is the victim of some witch-hunt. He must believe this simply to exist.
I too have changed, many times over. My transformations have been entirely necessary and internal in nature. Painfully I have scrutinized who I am, revealing my innermost hopes, dreams, fears and beliefs only to myself and to those who love me. I have emerged stronger, more confident and self-actualized. This is true growth, not born of a desire for acceptance, love, money or power.
My relationship with my spirituality is tenuous at best. Who I am is no longer defined by my existential pondering. My spirituality is born from my role as mother, partner, friend, student, co-worker… I have lost touch with the traditional notion of a supreme being. (More another day...)